Daughter of the King

Identity. noun. the fact of who or what a person or thing is. the qualities or beliefs that make a particular person different from others.

We hear this word a lot. Identity. Who are you identified with? What identifies you? What is your identity?

I have struggled so much with this word, “identity”. In high school, all of my worth came from my popularity and my acceptance from others. How many people knew who I was? How many friends did I have?  What sport/activity was I doing? How many people liked the person I was? What boys liked me? How many people looked up to me? Am I good enough?

In college that word followed behind me. “Are you in a sorority?” “What sorority are you in?” “What is your major?” “What are you involved in?” “Who do you hang out with?” How many followers do I have on Instagram? What do I do on the weekends? What does my time go into? What do I look like? Am I as pretty as the girls around me? Am I good enough?

 About a year ago I was searching for my purpose in life. I was sitting at the Bizz “studying” trying to answer this question and I couldn’t.  I was lost and confused and full of myself and this person I was. I was trying to find my acceptance from other people, and they failed me. I started to wonder about so many things, including Jesus. I began to search and become interested in this Jesus guy I had always “known” and he started to change me from the inside out. I decided to deny myself, deny the identity I had and was pretending to be and FOLLOW Jesus.

Maybe you put your identity in finding acceptance from others; maybe you don’t. What is your identity in? Is it in what sorority or organizations you are involved in? Is it in a leadership position that you hold? Is it in social media? Is it in school? Do you put yourself in a category as “not good enough”? Is your identity in a specific sin or struggle? Is your identity in your past or your future? Is your identity in what you do and/or who you know?

(Don’t get me wrong I think that being involved and having certain priorities is very fun and important!) But there is a difference I have found from pulling away from these ~things~ that make me “WHO I AM” and truly discovering WHO I AM in Christ. I am a child of God! I am made perfect in His eyes because I am covered by His grace. I am captivating. I play an irreplaceable role in this world; I have a purpose.

Now take a second to watch this video.... (MUST WATCH!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWi5iXnguTU

Lord, thank you so much for your Love and your Mercy! Thank you for making it part of our design to want to be delighted in! I pray that we may delight not in the things from this world but in You God!  That we may not find acceptance from others but in You alone! Thank you for giving each of us a purpose. Thank you for giving us this life to live! I pray that we may use it for Your kingdom and Your glory. Lord I know that there is nothing in this world that can satisfy my soul like you do! Thank you for showing me who I am because of who you are. In your precious name I pray, Amen.

WHERE IS YOUR IDENTITY! I am challenging you!! I want you to think about your identity. Where does it come from? Is it authentic? Do you know who you are because of WHOSE you are?

Love, MC {daughter of the King}

Chasing After

I haven’t written in a while. I guess I have been busy and overwhelmed this semester. But really I can’t seem to get myself to finish a blog. I have started about eight entries since my last post and deleted them all. I write because I love to share what God is doing and teaching me. It helps me get through things and it is my hope that others reading can relate or will learn from it. It is me becoming vulnerable because of the One that I love.

This year has been different/fun/adventurous! It has been really good and sometimes bad but God has always been good. He has been the only thing that is constant. It is so evident to me that he will never fail me, here’s why…

I have seen people set free, and He is the reason. I have been caught in sin, but found in grace. I have been AFRAID to the point where I couldn’t sleep, and then comforted by His love and shield. I have been confused and doubted, yet He has shown me light and truth! I have wandered, but I am sealed by His spirit. I have not felt good enough, but He has shown me my worth. I have called out His name, and He has answered me.  I have been in a valley, but found a river running through.

We chase after things and we are run by our emotions and imagination (what I am currently learning in my English class thanks to the “romantic period.” Haha.) But it is so true people! Picture this:

You are in a valley. There are things you are looking up to and climbing/running/trying to get to. Things you are chasing after that you want or desire. Even things worth taking a chance on, things that you know could hurt you in the end. Yet you try anyways. Sometimes you fail and sometimes you make it but then you fall back down eventually. You see a river running through, it is pure and intriguing, but you ignore it and continue to look up to the flashy things of this world, the things that you want.

I think we can all agree that we find ourselves in a valley in parts of our lives. Here’s a secret… I was in a valley. I remember praying and asking God for contentment and he answered me.

Molly, do you believe that I am constant? Do you think I am enough?  Yes Lord, You are! Then why are you chasing other things?

Dang. That was my problem. I kept trying to attain certain things. I wanted more of what I knew was not enough! I was chasing worldly things instead of Jesus. If there is one thing I believe in my heart it is that God wins in the end; I know what He is capable of and that He WINS. So why did I continue to overlook him and go my own way? I wanted to lead my own life and failed.

But then I found a river running through. I decided to give it a look and I found it was a river full of life, joy, and peace! A living water. And I began to follow it. As I began to follow, it delivered me from the valley and brought me to a place of abundance. Jesus came to my rescue and I can’t stop singing His name!!!! All the time I was chasing these things, my creator, was chasing after me.

There are times in our life where we are on a mountain high and times in our life when we are deep in a valley. Where are you? What are you chasing? I want you to think about it and answer! I want you to ask yourself if you just “know” that He is constant and enough or if you BELIEVE it.

“Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.”
Psalm 139: 7-8

“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
Jeremiah 29:11

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33

Whether you are on a mountain top or deep in a valley
He is chasing you. He is after your heart. (!!!!!)